I find myself in a place where I feel obligated to do what is expected of me and at the same time striving to do what I want and need to do in order to survive figuratively and literally. I want to break free of these "restraints" and live my damn life, but why can't I? While speaking with a friend the other day I told him how I was feeling and his response was great. "Are these expectations that of society and your family or are they self-imposed"? I hate when people answer a question with a question but he made me think. I remember having my fortune read a couple of years ago, and the reader told me that what I feared most was success. I think as I get older I'm beginning to understand what he meant. By growing and becoming successful I will leave the world behind that I know ie. my family. The fissure between my two worlds is quite visible, now how do I bridge them or do I even try at all.